so i have found myself single again. but it wasn't for a lack of trying. when Tim came over on saturday night, i could sense there was a lot on his mind. so we sat down and talked about life, relationships, and happiness. well, he talked and i listened mostly. and though i may not have fully understood what he was feeling, i do appreciate his honesty. sure, i am sad and disappointed. for it has been a very long time since i have felt this way about someone. but i would never want to preclude someone from finding happiness.
i have been told that i seem like a very happy person. and for the most part this is very true. People who know me would say that i am always smiling, often laughing, and rarely sad. i find happiness in the things in my life; my family, my friends,and my work. unfortunately, people tend to lose sight of what is in front of them and wait around for the next best thing. the next best car, the next best party, the next best restaurant. we tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. so i may not be rich or drive a fancy car. but would i give up the laughter, the smiles, and the good times with my friends? never. i find the following quote on happiness to be quite meaningful...
".... there is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have and treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time...and remember that time waits for no one. So, stop waiting until you finish school, until you go back to school, until you lose ten pounds, until you gain ten pounds, until you have kids, until your kids leave the house, until you start work, until you retire, until you get married, until you get divorced, until Friday night, until Sunday morning, until you get a new car or home, until your car or home is paid off, until spring, until summer, until fall, until winter, until you are off welfare, until the first or fifteenth, until your song comes on, until you've had a drink, until you've sobered up, until you die, until you are born again to decide that there is no better time than right now to be happy." -unknown author
for they say that Happiness is a journey, not a destination.
thank you nurse Cleo.